Non-School

I would spend my time blogging.  After college, I would get into Hollywood.  :D

What I Wish I Did

Year 1
1 English II (G)
2 World Geography
3 Geometry (G)
4 Physical Science (H)
5 Career Orientation | Civics
6 PE I
7 Spanish I

Year 2
1 English III (APG)
2 World History (H?)
3 Algebra II (G)
4 Biology I (H)
5 PE II | Health
6 Spanish II
7 Talented Theater

Year 3
1 English IV (APG)
2 American History (H)
3 Advanced Math (APG)
4 Chemistry I (H)
5 Free Enterprise |
6 Talented Theater
7

College - Delgado Community College - Theater

I found that at UCF, if you didn't take 2 years of a foreign language in high school, which I think I've heard, you take like 4, but I think here 8 - 10 semesters of a foreign language in college.

What's Only Precious

I saw a decal on a car, and the 1st ½ seemed so precious and the 2nd ½ I just knew why it wasn't.  The only nice thing about people born in 1950 is how precious they are.

Distributing Tasks

Think about old, white English men going too far and young German boys or part German boys maybe part Jewish or indian too?  Like they make a joke out of the girls born in 1960.  They just want to go on and talk all about how good the experience is and say you'll get a chance to be juicy and strong and attractive, in some certain way.  The white kids gave the black people the job to announce to you you're a nigger.  It really distresses kids.  We have to find out, is this person like all Scandinavian?  Part German-Jewish?  Most adults are part German-Jewish.  I don't know if they feel more or something.  Europeans are racist.  Like, they have like benefits, are told their extremities are pretty.  My feet grew 2 sizes, and I mean it's funny but it's not.  I can't get them smaller.  The thing is you see what they really do and then you realize what they really do when you're not there though you know you were not there in the example you saw, too.  I'm also guessing I had a lighter schedule when I was in high school and still couldn't finish all my homework, I might be healthier, like no ballet once a week, no teen gymnastics, took regular gymnastics in the summer.

How I Feel

I have to leave at 10 A.M.  I'm very tired, will do homework tomorrow maybe.  I wanted to sleep in the tub.  Went to the therapist, got Panera Bread and didn't like the sandwich.  Strawberry low fat smoothie..

"Sharing"

Funny how famous Late Boomers set out to not let anyone else have fun and don't let them go away and have fun without them.  Was gonna say something else I forgot.  Figuring out what time I can go to school tomorrow.

Brothers and Sisters

So, why would I be like my brother and my dad's youngest sister not have to be shit like her siblings?  *BEEP*  Or that's ridiculous!  I don't think people think that she's even okay how she is, like what she does and what she claims is right.

I don't know why you'd say that it's all cut off at a point like the 80s.  About people born at a time when they got what they needed because it's when media finally began to emerge.  Like artsy entertainment.  People became fullout quirky, but they weren't supposed to.  Now, I want to be refined but my dad bites and claws at me like a bear emotionally and will never talk it out nor stop when I have him drive me somewhere in Orlando or the area.  I mean, I deserve to get what I need, and I'd still see him, anyway.  I'd see stuff around the house.  Him driving me makes me forget things, but I tend to forget when I see other people, as well.  Simply put, it's also nice to have him drive me, and sometimes I'd want to see him.  It's just that I can't really drive everywhere.  He drives me to the mall, to the grocery and even does the groceries for me.  It's just that I deserve to be driven, and I mean why should he stop me?  I want to learn to drive, but my life has been too hard.  I still don't feel like that well, haven't practiced, don't always have the car, like to go to school.  Then, I don't have a car.  I've tried to get 2 temporary Christmas jobs over the past 5 years working in popular, fancy stuff.  1 was to be given to someone in need, and the other seemed to want experience.  I just am not lucky in Orlando but was accepted in Slidell with quite a guarantee...  I would drive if I had a car.  I often am asleep when my parents are home or probably don't feel relaxed.  So, it's $4 for a van, and I sleep on it.  That's a long way but I think maybe a set fare.  It seems like a lot now, could pay for other things.  My college is just a loan, now.  That's why I don't take other classes.  I used to do ballet, a long time ago.  I had to pay before with my working money even at 15.  So...

So, I was wondering why people are not ready to accept you for who your dad is.  People have been like to the world's end fortifying or glorifying the worth of their dads and moms racially.  I mean, I just don't want to be my dad, I don't want to be my brother, and with my mom I mean she's nicer and not as nasty, really, can't stand my dad and brother as much, just didn't know them as much early on.  You might want to consider me just another person who deserves something in life and who does what she does and shouldn't be told she doesn't do what she doesn't do.  I don't know why my dad's face is so big.  Maybe, he is just being silly for my mom, but that was not something I had to do.  With other men, I guess it's interesting.  They want to know about the age of my dad, the younger 1s..  I find that a bit obvious.  They don't talk about it.  I mean, it's not like the best, maybe, and if it is you should respect it.  Before my dad worked as much, I mean he seemed kinda aloof, and that is NOT something young girls do.

Mad

So, I was thinking okay if I can't stay in the Voice for the Actor class, the other class Ginny teaches this semester, at Valencia..  My enrollment at Seminole doesn't work, and 2 or 3 times over a period of over a year or 2, Seminole has not gotten transcripts from 1 or more maybe main schools.  I was just upset because people are acting like it was planned and isn't because of me losing Florida residency and my dad not feeling like paying for more than 2 classes.

He paid the 1st day, but then he told my mom to take me out after and I don't know why.  No, I don't think we got in any fights.  I came home happy.  I think he paid for all of it because he thought I wouldn't listen and wasn't attending the class.  He borrowed money, and they paid.

Also, I went home and went online and then went to bed on the couch without even taking out my contacts.  Now, my right eye doesn't see as well, feels kinda dead but like it's recovering from something, like the stress.  It feels like I have a fuzzy contact on it, was just in the bathtub for 3½ hours.  I saw the bedroom door was closed and the microwave was on.  I'm kinda upset because I talked about seeing the spas with my mom, and it's because my mom used to work there.  I just don't go into shit like that.  Also, now, might be the time to add she wants to take class from Ginny.  My mom and dad have a problem.  They are suggesting in some way I may want to be like my brother and that I'm just lucky and now don't deserve it and that my brother is my twin.  They are the 1s who are more like my brother.  Ginny is just gonna think that I'm mixed, but isn't that stupid?

My suspicion is that Ginny...

(going to eat)

"Born and Bred in the Briar Patch"

Something funny is my friend from Florida came over to the New Orleans area and she secretly in a cute way that's kinda funny to speculate|spectacle on made a splash in the area and seems like she's from there kinda.  Hm.  This could be serious.  I think Tim Burton knows.  I think the whole world knows about my 2 old best friends who wouldn't talk to me anymore and who were both mean to me maybe it's okay and maybe it's justified to me.  It did make me mad just because I had no one else I could get to know as well.  I was mad otherwise.  At the younger 1 I fought back, like talked to her in a mimicy, nasty, cutting way it felt, more just was nagging, though.  The other 1 scared me.  I think the other 1 yea asked if I was "gay."  I think the other 1 wanted to call me a nigger because her mom is Lithuanian and her dad is all British.

Speaking of the title of my post, as I was walking worried that the Country Bear Jamboree just isn't funny anymore and before it was like I mean it knocked me out!  I could not stand coming here later on!  It seemed like it was made after the New Orleans area.  Maybe it was specifically spirited after the city I lived in and maybe like for example Pearl River possibly in some way.  I mean, there's also this place called like Bugaloosa a professor of English in honors in college in New Orleans talked about, had a small house, showed pictures of his granddaughter doing violin I think, had a maybe like greyhound type dog but not a greyhound, which I read a kid's book on a big fat messy-looking witch had 1 and ate it and was gonna ask to eat the horse of the guy, too, I mean he had the dog, maybe found this dunno where probably in the nation's oldest continuing city.

Class Today

Also, there was a girl who had been to a church in England and she seemed kinda delicate but like saucy like Irish.  Saucy is also a sensitive word that can be used in various manners.

So, I was gonna say something else I forgot.

It seems the blonde was disturbed but took charge.  People were getting emotional, upset I might not be in Voice.  I’m already not enrolled and like the other classes.  I probably will stay but maybe it’s not safe and I won’t for some reason maybe.

I was just worried the blonde, like sorta wavy blonde, was kinda like drained and hollow and took charge like Ginny but seemed mad.  Like, she isn’t even the same person.  I think people were jealous I know the teacher from awhile talking online.

Class Today

I noticed that the blonde had a plastered hollow very juiced look.  She had the look that she liked Sleeping Beauty.  I like Sleeping Beauty, too.

Funny how you feel sorry for people who are not from Florida when people in Florida are so overly sympathetic to themselves.

I found in Voice for the Actor the teacher’s dad is from Pittsburgh and her mom is from California.    She’s from Santa Clara, the San Fransisco area.

I want to go out to eat when I get home.  I just got a Snickers again..

Glitch

So, what's this people being flattered by their younger siblings?  I grew up tested to be like my brother and I don't like who he is, just think he's nice like everyone else.  He is the opposite of me, does not look European.  People think I'm only worth it because I'm young.  He acts like I have the same problems.  He sometimes seemed gregarious and when he was very little, like before he was in school a long time ... this 1 time in a school play he was like messing around with our mom, was sick and didn't want to do it, was 3, was Joseph, the hero, for the Nativity.  Why does that sound like me?  ':[  I can't say I was always cook before he was born nor in pre-school.  I only looked cute kinda the day before.  It's funny, yes, he was pampered more as being right, which was probably bad for him.  People acted like in college like it didn't matter emotionally.  People think I'm like puppeted to be all that I am.  He's like total shit to me.  I'm serious!  :0  He doesn't even seem human, does not think white at all, is just a machine and slightly pleasure object.  I'm not saying I think he deserves to be mistreated nor that he's bad, worse than anyone else.  I don't appreciate people thinking they're more European when they look like him to me.  I don't know what's been going on.  I've been trying to get on my track in life, despite what the whole world is like compared to me.  What about Johnny Depp and Lily Rose?  Aren't they something, not just some mistake, some error, some glitch like in the game?